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Ever since I was a very little girl writing is all I ever had to express myself. I am not one to talk to people; never really had anyone there for me at least not anyone who stuck around. What you are reading here is highly personal; more than you'll want to know about me. . .but it is my link to sanity. . .

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Confusion?!?!?!

Living in a cloud of confusion, desperately searching to discover the answers. Do they even exist? Will I ever find them? Will they be what I expect? Will I have made the right choices?

Scenarios swirl around my jumbled mind, each one more disturbing than the last.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Misc Thoughts Of Mine

Paths are chosen; boundaries are laid; lines are drawn.

The paths before us are encased in fog, and behind us; disappear.

Boundaries exist only to entrap rather than protect and the lines can never be completely erased.

Regret is purposeless: the only way to change the past is to redirect your future.

I have yet to discover anything is as I had imagined, hoped, or dreamt it may be.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Morning Glory

Ahh…
The first morning dew

The sun is rising
The fog is lifting

I uncurl myself to accept
All the morning has to offer

The quenching drops of dew
The sun’s warming rays

The Glory of the morning is mine alone
I release my beauty for few to see

Midday is arriving
I have drunk all the dew
The sun’s rays are burning

I must re-curl myself-
I must hide from the world

My day is done
I will return
But only in the
Glory of Morning

Sunday, November 06, 2005

I am ME

You say you want to know WHO I am
I say I am ME

You ask who is ‘ME’
I say I am a Mother, a Friend, a Lover, a Companion

I am Courageous yet Cowardly
Outspoken yet Shy

I am Thoughtful and Considerate yet Hasty and Bold
I have Goals and Dreams and Desires

What more should you be told

You say that is WHAT you are
I want to know WHO you are

I say WHAT I am makes me WHO I am
And I am ME!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Tick Tock - There Goes My Mind

I’ve heard it said before that a mind is a terrible thing to waste. . .
Stuck in lands far away I’m finding it too simple to misplace

Idle time erodes the mind
Erases pieces of your sanity

Consumed by the thoughts swarming my mind. . .

Wrongs that can never be righted
Rights that should have been followed
Things that should be
Things that could be
Things that never will be

Preparing to re-enter reality
Can my mind handle all there is to face
Only time will tell. . .

Yes only time. . .
Time that has driven me to this madness

Friday, October 14, 2005

A song can say it ALL

I want somebody to share - share the rest of my life
Share my inner-most thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side & give me support
And in return he'll get my support
He will listen to me when I want to speak about the world we live in and life in general
Though my views may be wrong - they may even be perverted
He'll hear me out and won't easily be converted to my way of thinking - in fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all - he will understand me

I want somebody who cares for me passionately - with every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things in a different light
All the things I detest - I will almost like
I don't want to be tied to anyone's strings - I carefull try to avoid those things
But when I'm asleep - I want somebody who will put their arms around me, kiss me tenderly
Though things like this make me sick
In a case like this - I'll get away with it

-Depeche Mode - Somebody

Of course all the "he's" were originally "she's" in the song - but I took the liberty of making that change in order to apply to me. This is the one song that puts everything exactly as it should be.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Quotes to contemplate & inspire

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. -Mahatma Gandhi


Get your facts first, then you can distort them as much as you please--Mark Twain


It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.--Aristotle

If everbody's thinking alike, somebody isn't thinking.--Anonymous


Now and then it is good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy-Anonymous


Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.--Jones


There is no failure except in no longer trying.-Elbert Hubbard


We live in a rainbow of chaos-Paul Cezanne


The best way to predict your future is to create it.-Anonymous


It is better to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation.-Herman Melville


Work like you don't need the money. Love like you've never been hurt. And dance like no one is watching.-Unknown


You can go out, you can take a ride and when you get out on your own you get all smoothed out inside and it's good to be alone-Face Up 1991


What a fool I used to be-Presto, 1990


I believe in what I see I believe in what I hear I believe that what I'm feeling changes how the world appears-Totem, 1996


We are islands to each other building hopeful bridges on the troubled sea-Entre Nous, 1979


We travel on the road to adventure on a desert highway straight to the heart of the sun like lovers and heros, and the restless part of everyone we're only at home when we're on the run--Dreamline, 1991


The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do-Walter Bagehot


It is never too late to be what you might have been-George Eliot


I had a dream of a winter garden, a midnight rendevous, silver blue and frozen silence, what a fool I was for you-Presto, 1990


Cast in this unlikely role, ill-equipped to act with insufficient tact one must put up barriers to keep oneself intact-Limelight, 1980


All of us get lost in the darkness--Dreamers learn to steer by the stars. All of us do time in the gutter--Dreamers turn to look at the cars-The Pass, 1991


Love is born with solar flares from two magnetic poles. It moves toward a higher plane where two halves make two wholes-The Speed Of Love, 1993


There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.-George Sand


Never look back unless you are planning on going that way.--Anonymous


When one door closes, another door opens, but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.--Alexander Graham Bell

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Where did we go wrong?

Everlasing - Unconditional Love...Does such a love exist?
Will we ever manage to find it if it does?
Will it find us?
Will we be able to recognize it?
Whatever happened to our days of friendship, laughter and fun?
How can we live out the rest of days in this hell we have created?
How do we begin to find ourselves and each other?
I love you dearly and miss you as well as us more than words can express.
I so fear that we may be lost beyond being able to be found.
Please say it isn't so.
Please say you want to help me find all that we have lost. . .
All that we may have never had to begin with.