It's funny really, in a tragic sort of way, what you do to me.
I like to think I am strong and will be satisifed to love you quietly while remaining simply your friend in order to keep you in my life. Yet, that right there shows you just how weak I am.
These feelings frighten me so. I have been hurt in the past and have vowed never to open myself again, yet there is something about you that makes it impossible for me to keep my heart chained up.
I've tried not to think about what it would be like to make love to you.
To be honest, I don't know if I could handle it.
I want you so badly and so completely - mind,body & soul.
I long to lay under the stars with you, holding each other, oblivious to everything around us.
I could and do get lost in your eyes.
I think I would explode if I ever looked into them and suddenly discovered that you loved me too.
But I don't need you to tell me what a foolish fantasy that is.
You are everything I have ever dreamed about and everything I don't deserve.
